Bonebon
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Post by Bonebon on Oct 23, 2015 1:30:21 GMT -5
Bone sighed, she was feeling agitated. More so than usual. She would scowl at the slightest noise, and she couldn't breathe very well. Sometimes she accidentally took out her anger on some cultists and humans who were passing by. It made her feel guilty, it made her remember what she did before. Sighing once again she got up and decided that she should talk to someone about this. She noticed Whimsy in the distance, and remembered that she had been a nice friend to her. So she decided to call her name. "Hey! Whimsy! Mind if I talk to you for a bit?" she yelled.
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Post by Whimsy on Oct 23, 2015 1:56:23 GMT -5
"Huh? Oh sure, what's up?" Whimsy asked, her ears twitching at the sound of conversation, "Hey... are you alright?" She asked, feeling a bit more concerned at Bonebon's distraught expression.
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Bonebon
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Post by Bonebon on Oct 23, 2015 2:13:35 GMT -5
She tapped her fingers. "Yeah just..just a little agitated. I'll be fine?" she groaned and lied down, patting the space beside her as a gesture for Whimsy to sit or lie down beside her."I don't know honestly. I've been feeling angry a lot lately, maybe it's an attempt to feel things besides loneliness? Or self-loathing?" her tone was soft and mellow, not like her usual bright and chipper one.
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Post by Whimsy on Oct 23, 2015 2:28:57 GMT -5
"Oh..." Whimsy plopped down beside Bonebon, her legs crossed under one another, "I see. So it's this kind of a talk." She said with a sigh. "I know how you feel." The statement followed, tumbling between her lips, each word laced with a hidden meaning. "Do you hate yourself?" Whimsy asked the question, knowing what the answer would probably be. She began to form a response in her head.
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Bonebon
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Post by Bonebon on Oct 23, 2015 2:32:31 GMT -5
"Totally." she said automatically. "It's kinda hard not to. Especially with all the shit I did because of how cowardly I actually am." she spat. She was getting angry again, but she took a deep breath and tried to calm down. "Sorry if I sound mad..it's just...sometimes I use the anger to get rid of my sadness."
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Post by Whimsy on Oct 23, 2015 2:59:27 GMT -5
"..." Whimsy stared at Bonebon with almost stern, cat-like eyes. Sharp. "One cannot hate themselves." She stated. "You can hate an action. Something you did. Something you do." Whimsy shrugged the words off so easily. Each statement rolling off of her tongue like liquid, "but to hate yourself... is to hate every single thing about you. To hate yourself, is to regret being born. Do you honestly feel that way? Because if you do regret being born, you're not only disregarding your own feelings, but also MY feelings. Do you know how much deviation that would cause us? If you weren't born, things would not be the same." Whimsy nearly spat the words.
"You can change the things that you don't like about you, but you can't bring yourself back to life if you decide to end it." Whimsy said, hanging her head so that her hair would cover her stinging eyes that began to blur from forming tears.
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Post by Whimsy on Oct 23, 2015 3:00:09 GMT -5
((Sorry that's a bit deep, but I have a strong opinion on this situation))
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Bonebon
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Post by Bonebon on Oct 23, 2015 3:07:16 GMT -5
(( its cool ))
She was speechless. "Sorry..." she muttered. She was debating on letting her anger flow again, wanting to leave the situation and go on as if nothing happened. But no, she couldn't do that. She was going to let this out, so she let tears flow. "I..I didn't mean to make you sad. I'm sorry. But I don't hate myself completely." she took a shaky breath. "I hate how I let anger blind me, how I let it build up and accept it as a form of avoiding the feeling of sadness...." she was silent for a moment, closing her eye thoughtfully. "...I hate how I know all this weak points, but I can't bring myself to face them."
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Post by Whimsy on Oct 23, 2015 3:14:42 GMT -5
"Then don't get mad!" Whimsy cried out, pulling Bonebon up into a tight hug, "It's okay to talk about how you feel... you can't let yourself bottle things up... it's not healthy. For all this time that I've known you, you never lashed out... you never told me how you felt about things, did you? I'm sorry, I should have realized sooner... I just..." Whimsy sighed, still latched onto the other, "I don't want to see you beat totaled down like this..." she said, "because I do it too... and I know it's a horrible feeling... I don't want you to feel like that."
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Post by Whimsy on Oct 23, 2015 3:15:37 GMT -5
"You're not a bad person Bonebon. And you need to see that... you need to see yourself the way I see you."
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Post by Bonebon on Oct 23, 2015 3:21:52 GMT -5
She sniffed, "I..I killed...people...my friends...." she hugged back tightly, "One time I thought I was good, people praised me, my friend said I was compassionate, that I was willing to help..." she let out a dry laugh, "Then I scared that same friend away..!...Sometimes that look she had on her eyes still haunts me..." She buried her face in Whims' chest, occasionally letting out shaky breaths and sobs.
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Post by Whimsy on Oct 23, 2015 3:33:20 GMT -5
"You can't scare me away. I've killed people. I didn't have a choice really...But still." Whimsy spoke gently, "I won't leave you."
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Post by Bonebon on Oct 23, 2015 3:37:20 GMT -5
She was sobbing louder this time. She took a few more deep breaths before she started talking again, "When I...when I killed them..I was laughing..I thought they deserved it." She broke away from Whimsy and curled up into a ball facing away from her. "I decapitated them, stabbed them repeatedly....I'm horrible.." she said, silently sobbing.
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Post by Whimsy on Oct 23, 2015 3:48:03 GMT -5
Whimsy had killed countless others that had tried to take her away. Some innocent, some not. She laughed. And she cried. She went crazy at the time. "I'm going to tell you something I told no one else. I'm sorry that I can't understand...exactly how you feel. But I do know what it feels like to lose loved ones. I was forced to sit in a room of my family's blood and organs for three days...though, it felt like a lot longer than that. I was trapped, so there was no leaving...until all of these people broke in. I was terrified, and angry. I was twelve. I didn't understand. So I-" Whimsy paused, "I killed them. They probably had families too. And to this day, I still hate... I don't..." Whimsy couldn't even finish telling her story, and she had certainly skipped past some events.
"The point is, that no body is perfect. No human, monster or hybrid can be pure. You shouldn't hate yourself for things like that."
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Bonebon
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Post by Bonebon on Oct 23, 2015 3:52:40 GMT -5
"Whimsy...." She slowly looked back up at whimsy and hugged her softly. "We've been through some weird shit huh?" she laughed bitterly, "Those people, they took advantage of me. I was just some clean-up for the monsters that roamed the town...." she sighed, "Life's full of assholes ain't it?"
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